I don't even know where to begin...
I've been seeing someone for about two weeks now, we've had one official date but we've also seen each other nearly every day. On our first date she was super nervous about hugging me when it was over, she divulged this through a text message once I had gotten home. I went and got as best a hug as was appropriate from her at work the next day.
Since then when we see each other its usually lunch before I give her a ride to work, and when she gets out of the car she always initiates a hug. We have done more than the quick meal once, which was an entire day spent together, or damn near to. We went to a movie with my cousin whom I teenagersit, then slept in our respective homes until we went to breakfast the next morning and then hung out at the mall followed by a trip to Ann Arbor, nothing super significant happened but there was a sense of really seeing into each other's world simply by the amount of time spent together.
So the moral of all of this story is I really really like her and I don't know how to, I guess you could call it, take the next step. I've had a desire on some level to kiss her since the first picture message she sent me roughly a month ago, sometimes you just look at a person and wonder what it would be like. Now a month, a date and two weeks of hanging out I still want to, and everyone I am close to who has heard this story already is giving me shit about not just doing it. IT IS SOOO NOT JUST THAT EASY!!!!! I am terrified that the reason there has not been a second official date is that we're in friends zone, that she'll freak out and not be able to be my friend if I do try to kiss her, and I'll be totally freaked out if I get rejected(I'm pretty phobic!).
So I have been googling all morning trying to figure out how one makes themself exude the kiss me vibes and how one goes for a first kiss, I'll go with gracefully. The search has come up with some pretty funny finds but not so much useful stuff, mostly because its all stuff I feel like I'm already doing or it just sounds way simpler in their words than it would be in real time.
Here is where I say anyone reading this advice please!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
the gem of my searching lol
Showing posts with label Mila Days. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Mila Days. Show all posts
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Monday, January 10, 2011
left to my own devices i'm addicted its a crisis!
These lyrics seem to sum up what's going on right about now...
Caught me by surprise.
All I did was to sit right down,
Stare into your eyes.
Just a fool for you baby.
And I'll be your fool tonight.
Well I've been down this crazy road,
But not like this before.
Had the blues when I heard the news,
But I'm not worried no more.
-38 Special
Caught me by surprise.
All I did was to sit right down,
Stare into your eyes.
Just a fool for you baby.
And I'll be your fool tonight.
Well I've been down this crazy road,
But not like this before.
Had the blues when I heard the news,
But I'm not worried no more.
-38 Special
Sunday, January 9, 2011
...inexperienced at giving up...
That I am,
but dealing with women...
now that can be a way to teach me,
and pretty damn quick!
I don't know how to deal,
with this whirling,
swirling,
too damn much,
craziness!
I am so close...
to saying I quit,
and meaning it,
maybe its not a bad plan.
I dunno just not ok,
not ok with questioning,
I wonder if I'm saying,
I wonder if I'm doing,
I wonder if I'm acting,
the wrong way,
constantly!
but dealing with women...
now that can be a way to teach me,
and pretty damn quick!
I don't know how to deal,
with this whirling,
swirling,
too damn much,
craziness!
I am so close...
to saying I quit,
and meaning it,
maybe its not a bad plan.
I dunno just not ok,
not ok with questioning,
I wonder if I'm saying,
I wonder if I'm doing,
I wonder if I'm acting,
the wrong way,
constantly!
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Lyrical, Prose Forced to Poetics...Beat! No, there lacks a rhythm...
Music,
a beating,
a pulsing,
a commonality.
Commonality,
a thing in both,
a foundation in both,
a string to tie together.
One day,
taken in stride,
just a breakfast,
then a mall walk,
then a trip,
A2 comith we.
One trip,
the traffic,
the snow,
the stops...
U of M,
Chipolte,
Panera,
Chipolte again,
back to the traffic,
back to the snow,
back home.
Traffic,
Snow,
Annoying!
U of M,
free money.
Chipolte,
community found.
Panera,
free food,
cheap food,
venturing back.
Chipolte,
a gift cherished.
Traffic,
Snow,
Annoying!
Home,
long enough,
only to shower.
The terror trip,
the first adventure back,
seeing the old place,
yes I went back to P707,
yes I remember our number,
I was 263 got that one too.
Soup getting achieved,
just a quick delivery,
soup delivery,
enjoy!
The thankfulness,
you're amazing,
you're the bomb,
thank you.
Your soup,
deemed worth it,
worth the terror.
Adventure off to home,
I'm staying this time!
Night well slept,
but a fear upon waking,
missing father,
he eventually checked in,
two hours later,
early morning,
not appreciated!
Now the ponderence,
a poeticesk beginning,
discussion of music,
discussion of commonality,
where did that stream go,
nowhere is the truth!
I've told much,
yet withheld just as much,
I've shared things,
words,
poetically,
lyrically,
beat fashion perhaps,
I've told nothing of substance,
what happened,
had less to do with this,
more to do with that,
yet I've given the insight of our day,
who'd've though you can give it all,
and nothing this way?!
Hang on this cliff,
the one I've left,
but don't expect me to come back,
as much as I've told I've said,
I will hold the truth of its importance,
in my depth...
fortress of secrets,
hidden where only the brave dare to go,
none come back the same,
and our secrets will be kept,
for it is only the makers,
who see what the memories have left.
(musicallities posted seperately)
a beating,
a pulsing,
a commonality.
Commonality,
a thing in both,
a foundation in both,
a string to tie together.
One day,
taken in stride,
just a breakfast,
then a mall walk,
then a trip,
A2 comith we.
One trip,
the traffic,
the snow,
the stops...
U of M,
Chipolte,
Panera,
Chipolte again,
back to the traffic,
back to the snow,
back home.
Traffic,
Snow,
Annoying!
U of M,
free money.
Chipolte,
community found.
Panera,
free food,
cheap food,
venturing back.
Chipolte,
a gift cherished.
Traffic,
Snow,
Annoying!
Home,
long enough,
only to shower.
The terror trip,
the first adventure back,
seeing the old place,
yes I went back to P707,
yes I remember our number,
I was 263 got that one too.
Soup getting achieved,
just a quick delivery,
soup delivery,
enjoy!
The thankfulness,
you're amazing,
you're the bomb,
thank you.
Your soup,
deemed worth it,
worth the terror.
Adventure off to home,
I'm staying this time!
Night well slept,
but a fear upon waking,
missing father,
he eventually checked in,
two hours later,
early morning,
not appreciated!
Now the ponderence,
a poeticesk beginning,
discussion of music,
discussion of commonality,
where did that stream go,
nowhere is the truth!
I've told much,
yet withheld just as much,
I've shared things,
words,
poetically,
lyrically,
beat fashion perhaps,
I've told nothing of substance,
what happened,
had less to do with this,
more to do with that,
yet I've given the insight of our day,
who'd've though you can give it all,
and nothing this way?!
Hang on this cliff,
the one I've left,
but don't expect me to come back,
as much as I've told I've said,
I will hold the truth of its importance,
in my depth...
fortress of secrets,
hidden where only the brave dare to go,
none come back the same,
and our secrets will be kept,
for it is only the makers,
who see what the memories have left.
(musicallities posted seperately)
The Musicallities
Such a musical day,
I want to remember every song,
but alas I don't,
so very many songs we shared.
We shared so much music,
yet the radio was so little of it,
we shared lyrics of our day,
some so random based on radio,
some so random based on topics,
something so random based on nothing.
This touch of music between us,
commonality,
drawing us in,
pushing us past comfort,
strange and new,
how'd it happen,
it's a miracle,
after all that's your name,
right.
Trying to piece it together,
tear it apart,
enough to figure out the song's name,
enough to understand why it came up,
enough to explain where it came from,
enough to explain why it is important.
What if I told you it was all meant to be,
would you believe me,
would you agree?
Everything changes but beauty remains,
something so tender I can't explain.
-Kelly Clarkson "A Moment Like This"
How can it not be,
meeting someone who,
makes you feel free to be,
who makes you feel appreciated,
who smirks and thinks others crazy,
at the though of you're the first...
person to treat me well, really.
So everything has changed,
the understanding that it's deserve,
the understanding that you are different,
the understand that this is what I want,
despite what it may be,
feeling treated well,
like a person with you.
You say you're here to make others smile,
mission successful!
The song that drug us in,
into our game of lyrical determination,
what is that song,
how does it go again,
and we started to piece it together,
first lyric of the song we got,
not in order though,
When you're on the phone
Hang up and you call right back
U got, u got it bad
If you miss a day without your friend
Your whole life's off track
You know you got it bad when you're stuck in the house
You don't wanna have fun
It's all you think about
the original lyric that stared it all from me,
U got it bad when you're out with someone
But you keep on thinkin' bout somebody else
U got it bad
and then the chime in of you,
When you say that you love 'em
And you really know
Everything that used to matter, don't matter no more
Like my money, all my cars
Flowers, cards and candy
Said I'm fortunate to have you girl
I want you to know
I really adore you
and once it started it never stopped...
All my people who know what's going on
Look at your mate, help me sing my song
Tell her I'm your man, you're my girl
I'm gonna tell it to the whole wide world
Ladies say I'm your girl, you're my man
Promise to love you the best I can,
-Usher "U Got It Bad"
we decided it was only appropriate then to YouTube it,
listened to the whole thing through!
Looking out the windows at that snow and traffic,
came the lyrics of the day's descriptions,
a song new to me but appropriate,
Such a lonely day
And it's mine
The most loneliest day in my life,
Such a lonely day
And it's mine
It's a day that I am glad I survived.
-System of a Down "Loneliest Day of My Life"
the song went on,
but this was what we really took to!
Random favorites,
I'd forgotten about,
still hitting your register,
brought back to me,
I’m on the outside
I’m looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
Cause inside you’re ugly
You’re Ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you
-Staind "Outside"
The lyrics I recalled,
the lyrics that we screamed.
It was among the few,
the few that we listened to,
that happened upon us,
from the radio speakers,
"Just the Way You Are"-Bruno Mars,
hit a sync,
without meaning to,
I signed it,
you noticed,
interestingly fun time,
a single interesting interaction,
who'd've guessed,
no one ever notices that.
When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile,
cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are
A grand turning point,
where our sing along,
became don't forget the lyrics,
and the musical of our day,
took root.
I was thinkin' about her, thinkin' bout me!
Thinkin' 'bout us, what we gonna be.
Open my eyes, it was only just a dream.
So, I travel back, down the road.
When she'll come back? No one knows.
I realized that it was only just a dream.
-Usher? Nelly? "Just a Dream"
Last to be mentioned,
second to be heard,
only to not really matter,
the beat was great,
made us start our Usher debate,
fin.
I want to remember every song,
but alas I don't,
so very many songs we shared.
We shared so much music,
yet the radio was so little of it,
we shared lyrics of our day,
some so random based on radio,
some so random based on topics,
something so random based on nothing.
This touch of music between us,
commonality,
drawing us in,
pushing us past comfort,
strange and new,
how'd it happen,
it's a miracle,
after all that's your name,
right.
Trying to piece it together,
tear it apart,
enough to figure out the song's name,
enough to understand why it came up,
enough to explain where it came from,
enough to explain why it is important.
What if I told you it was all meant to be,
would you believe me,
would you agree?
Everything changes but beauty remains,
something so tender I can't explain.
-Kelly Clarkson "A Moment Like This"
How can it not be,
meeting someone who,
makes you feel free to be,
who makes you feel appreciated,
who smirks and thinks others crazy,
at the though of you're the first...
person to treat me well, really.
So everything has changed,
the understanding that it's deserve,
the understanding that you are different,
the understand that this is what I want,
despite what it may be,
feeling treated well,
like a person with you.
You say you're here to make others smile,
mission successful!
The song that drug us in,
into our game of lyrical determination,
what is that song,
how does it go again,
and we started to piece it together,
first lyric of the song we got,
not in order though,
When you're on the phone
Hang up and you call right back
U got, u got it bad
If you miss a day without your friend
Your whole life's off track
You know you got it bad when you're stuck in the house
You don't wanna have fun
It's all you think about
the original lyric that stared it all from me,
U got it bad when you're out with someone
But you keep on thinkin' bout somebody else
U got it bad
and then the chime in of you,
When you say that you love 'em
And you really know
Everything that used to matter, don't matter no more
Like my money, all my cars
Flowers, cards and candy
Said I'm fortunate to have you girl
I want you to know
I really adore you
and once it started it never stopped...
All my people who know what's going on
Look at your mate, help me sing my song
Tell her I'm your man, you're my girl
I'm gonna tell it to the whole wide world
Ladies say I'm your girl, you're my man
Promise to love you the best I can,
-Usher "U Got It Bad"
we decided it was only appropriate then to YouTube it,
listened to the whole thing through!
Looking out the windows at that snow and traffic,
came the lyrics of the day's descriptions,
a song new to me but appropriate,
Such a lonely day
And it's mine
The most loneliest day in my life,
Such a lonely day
And it's mine
It's a day that I am glad I survived.
-System of a Down "Loneliest Day of My Life"
the song went on,
but this was what we really took to!
Random favorites,
I'd forgotten about,
still hitting your register,
brought back to me,
I’m on the outside
I’m looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
Cause inside you’re ugly
You’re Ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you
-Staind "Outside"
The lyrics I recalled,
the lyrics that we screamed.
It was among the few,
the few that we listened to,
that happened upon us,
from the radio speakers,
"Just the Way You Are"-Bruno Mars,
hit a sync,
without meaning to,
I signed it,
you noticed,
interestingly fun time,
a single interesting interaction,
who'd've guessed,
no one ever notices that.
When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile,
cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are
A grand turning point,
where our sing along,
became don't forget the lyrics,
and the musical of our day,
took root.
I was thinkin' about her, thinkin' bout me!
Thinkin' 'bout us, what we gonna be.
Open my eyes, it was only just a dream.
So, I travel back, down the road.
When she'll come back? No one knows.
I realized that it was only just a dream.
-Usher? Nelly? "Just a Dream"
Last to be mentioned,
second to be heard,
only to not really matter,
the beat was great,
made us start our Usher debate,
fin.
Friday, January 7, 2011
cruelty
My head and heart are so cruel to me! Well not really my heart, more my stomache, I mean maybe my heart has some play in it. I dunno, whatever organs of mine are in on the scheme matters not because its happening despite which ones they are.
I spend two or three days being irritable about how to move forward, why am I initiating conversation all the time, why did I go a whole day with not response, why do I randomly not get responses when I feel like they should have come already. Feeling like I said something stupid and freaking out that I might be done talking forever, going nuts over every little thing.
Today, I pick the lets see if you contact me game, you do, I even get you to come out and do stuff with me and D. Ok so now you want me to go do something entirely foolish and instead of feeling the need to play the hard to get card some more like hte you contact me game was intended, I'm actually planning to do it.
Why I am letting one person throw me through a gammet of reactions within several days, even hours, I don't get it. Grrrrrrrrrr I hope this doesn't bite me in the ass, I've had enough of that for a bit!
I spend two or three days being irritable about how to move forward, why am I initiating conversation all the time, why did I go a whole day with not response, why do I randomly not get responses when I feel like they should have come already. Feeling like I said something stupid and freaking out that I might be done talking forever, going nuts over every little thing.
Today, I pick the lets see if you contact me game, you do, I even get you to come out and do stuff with me and D. Ok so now you want me to go do something entirely foolish and instead of feeling the need to play the hard to get card some more like hte you contact me game was intended, I'm actually planning to do it.
Why I am letting one person throw me through a gammet of reactions within several days, even hours, I don't get it. Grrrrrrrrrr I hope this doesn't bite me in the ass, I've had enough of that for a bit!
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