sometimes the words I use to express my journey need some decoding, while this blog likely wont decode me completely...I intend to have it scratch the surface atleast. there are simply points in my life I find hard to say, something about loving, trusting, depending on and/or relying on people makes me an eirie kind of weak in the knees and sick in the pit of my stomach.
welcome to the rantings of a jaded soul far too early in life.

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

I Love This Me

I love the me I am with you, not because I need you to complete me or because I do not love myself alone.
I love the me that is part of us, because I think its the me I was meant to be and because I think this is the love I'm deserving of.
I love this me because I think who I was always meant to be was a me that had it in their heart to be a part of this us.

Saturday, May 4, 2013

Beautiful Girl

She was beautiful and perfect,
despite knowing things less than perfect about her.
She comes across as well put together,
as close to perfect as one can get.

Then I saw her slowed down,
exposed and opened up to me,
saw every part of her,
all that keeps her closed off.
It was then that she was even more beautiful.

As she sits there "starfishing",
laughing at herself,
calling herself awkward,
she has completely won me over,
showed me herself at her most beautiful.

She'll never understand it,
how her complete realness,
letting me see that,
is what gives her the greatest beauty.

On the surface...
I love her hair,
its red and curls.
her eyes,
the glass blue.
But seeing her flaws,
letting me that close.
to see her heart,
into the soul of her being,
that is when I am astounded by her beauty.